Iíd kill for you I died for you I cried a million tears mourning over you I would take back everything that is mine To relive one glimpse of our moment in time I am troubled from what has seized to be Feeling incomplete knowing youíre the missing piece How do I persist in a world that can ít exist? If I had one wish, it would be to fix all of this Hold me down Confined and under siege Terror in all of my good dreams of me Finally, set me free Drop me like a penny down a well And wish away all you ever felt Shackle me to resentment of self And erase my face with someone else Loving deceit will not leave Iíll never break free from jealousy This curse still lingers in treachery Every waking moment is misery This is why: I hate this world more than anything I begged to you, ìStay awake for me.î You cradled back into a beautiful sleep Life is nothing more than an endless dream Sinking under starlight Drift away into open nights Iíll be finally set free There is no safety in closing my eyes anymore. In the past it brought warm rushes through my body at the thought of her. It has been replaced by a hollow feeling where my heart used to lie. Oh, how I long to have that feeling once again. For either a moment or forever, I just want to hold her so close that there is nothing between us. To get lost in her beautiful brown eyes and taste her lovely lips once more. Her voice is like waves crashing on the shore and I think about her always. I can ít even sleep to get away. She owns my dreams as well. [ìRonaî written by Aaron Marks] Weíre like minds in suicide Harmoniously, killing in our symphony Canvas us in lucid dreams When life ís an art of agony This is our awakening I am awake The torment of disaster faced wide awake Left picking up the pieces of this heartache The plane of delirium where nothing is what it seems Iím dying for life and living in a lucid dream Heroine, woman of my dreams Heroin, my dreamÖ She still owns my dreams as well When life ís an art...

I see your face starring through me Like Iím nothing that youíll ever need Love has become less like a memory and more like a dream Dissipating with all the winds that change Beneath all the stale pain we have Cause it hurts not to have it But it feels not to have it Something so far awayÖ Letís set aside all these things that are hidden from view Because in our minds we both know who are the accused One can only concludeÖ Nothing is as cold as you Youíll forget but Iíll remember Leaving me as cold as November Look at me donít say you hate me Tell me that youíll never surrender But I know you and I know you Hibernating from all the blame I face The price of truth canít afford another excuse Cause it hurts like a habit But you know you canít have it [I miss you] Youíre the drug and Iím the addict Youíll forget but Iíll remember Leaving me as cold as November Look at me donít say you hate me Tell me that youíll never surrender But I know you and I know you Youíre cold

Lies all the time When will we get it straight? So we can fill up with your lungs Your lungs not mine Live when you die This is the paradigm So we can fill up without the lies Make one from two I am me and you And nothing can separate us We’ll tear it apart The rift will belong to you and I This paradox constantly taunts me in deceit I want to push it inside and hide in nothing but relief You never wanted to see the truth cause it hurts you too Be just me is something you can only do I want to push it inside With nothing to hide Never see the truth We’ll tear it apart We’ll see the end Then we’ll finally be you Did you even try to say it to my face? Let’s wrong the rights on your mind Bind to the blind Live when you die This is the paradigm So we can fill up without the lies Make one from two I am me and you And nothing can separate us We’ll tear it apart The rift will belong to you and I This paradox constantly taunts me in deceit I want to push it inside and hide in nothing but relief You never wanted to see the truth cause it hurts you to Be just me is something you can only do I want to push it inside With nothing to hide We’ll never see the truth We’ll tear it apart We’ll see the end Then we’ll finally be you Overdose me in comatosing rhetoric of hypocrites There is no coming and no going only impermanence still exists Don’t want to push it inside With nothing to hide Then I’ll find my way back through I’ll tear it apart We’ll tear it apart Then I’ll find my way through I despise your lies In your mind you are right But blind through my eyes As we confide in this paradigm Can we find me and you in us? Overdose me in the comatosing rhetoric of hypocrites There is no coming and no going only impermanence still exists I want to push it inside With nothing to hide You’ll never see the truth We’ll tear it apart We’ll see the end Then we’ll finally be you Wanna tear it apart Rip it apart Then I’ll finally see you

Take a breath and close your eyes Carry away inside of compromise It's as natural as preservation Play the game that I am fine But inside I die one day at a time Imagination is the only limitation This facade will hide my true disguise in all surroundings These fallacies will comfort me inside a wronged reality Crawl on beggars knees no honor lies among all thieves Can't tolerate to keep life straight when all I see are facades and fallacies This is all a facade and the fallacies are killing me How I hate in sincerity, you winning over me This facade will hide my true disguise in all surroundings These fallacies will comfort me inside a wronged reality Crawl on beggars knees no honor lies among all thieves Can't tolerate to keep life straight when all I see are facades and fallacies Who is still alone? I am so alone I know why you hate yourself Alone Can you tell me now who am I? I am just a lie

Countless days, I've thrown my life away Saying, “This will be the day that I change.” But it never came, till I reclaimed myself This is my time All of these days I spent placating Just wanted to walk away From all the things I've hurt the most I'd say, “I guess this is where I'll stay.” Inside the pain, lost in time Now, I start from the end Will I ever win or just pretend? What you give is what you get And all I'm left is contempt When will this end? Do not die with the music inside Celebrate what defines being alive Who decides what is wrong from right? Are you true to yourself or just fronting a lie? Victory is measured in suffering As we sow and reap in self prophecy Claim the keys you hide and seek Or retreat beside fear and defeat I will fight for what is mine I will not die with lost time Don't ever claim to relate if you don't Come face to face with the demons today You know you'll never escape the slave you create Unless you let go of your hope and then learn The difference between believe and know No, I will not repent for it's never been sin to exist Attrition infringed the hearts of men I will not submit to this endless list of victims Hating and creating our indifferences until the end Make no mistake, I fell from grace I've been betrayed and I've done the same I've faced the grave and felt the flames I'm 30 pieces in exchange I decimate but never hesitate I came, I saw, and forever changed I originate but never replicate I separate all imitating greatness -Kiss of Judas Victory is measured in suffering As we sow and reap in self prophecy Claim the keys you hide and seek Or retreat beside fear and defeat I will fight for what is mine I will not die with lost time This is my time to live my life Spare me the speech you were sold Born a black sheep only to die a scapegoat Romancing poems denotes superfluous prose selling out our souls Only to dispose of all of those who hold the antidote No, I will not sit and listen to this bullshit Tournament rounds of forfeit encouragement That's why I came to shut it down with no authority A massive attack on the silent majority Countless days, I've thrown my life away Saying, “This will be the day that I change.” But it never came, till I reclaimed myself Victory is measured in suffering As we sow and reap in self prophecy Claim the keys you hide and seek Or retreat beside fear and defeat I will fight for what is mine I will not die with lost time

I've seen the pieces of you Collect the empty in me We watched the core break away And now we're falling down Inside we rise to salience To think of you is to die Plague the essence of my life I can't escape the condescension It rapes my conscious like witnessing a homicide As I fell before me You came adoringly And whispered into my ear Those two words, 'Lucid Dream'. I'm so ignorant to all these things That I want to believe Did I make this happen to me? Or am I just happening to me? You're salient to me I've seen the pieces of you Collect the empty in me We watched the core break away And now we're falling down Inside we rise in salience You know where I'll find you Right next to me You're salient to me

Was this a dream? Am I dreaming? I am lucid now Holding us all in the world and we go And fall into place inside these dreams It's not like we stay too long awake or wonder why Was this a dream? Where are we now? Is it where we should be? Where are we now? Chasing our dreams Where are we now? Days turn to dreams Where are we now? Escape into sleep I've fallen to place inside these dreams Or am I just falling down to you? Where are we now? Is it where we should be? Where are we now? Chasing our dreams Where are we now? Days turn to dreams Where are we now? Escape into sleep

I'm just one man My plan is to fight with these words Love it or hate it, it's great cause it's my right to be heard I know this ain't just a verse, it's a drop in a drought All the propaganda and bullshit, I'm blockin' it out Go ahead and cover ya ears, I ain't gonna talk, Ima shout Fuck talkin' it out, is what the fuck I'm talking about Anybody stepping up in front of this mic could be served I paid my taxes so give me back the rights I deserve So, if patience is a virtue and success is a curse Then death is the only method for this stress to reverse Even though the most of you is seein' the truth is apparent They think you shouldn't hear it so they keep the proof esoteric Government is making all these fake threats through the media So we log on and spend our paychecks at Expedia And won't admit shit wear the shoe if the shit fits Money's the root of evil so dude look at who prints it Hold on, don't go having a fit again I'm happy to be a citizen in the country I live in I'm thankful for every person that's serving the forces So I can kick back with a rap verse and record it I'm just stating the fact: The powers been removed from the hands of the majority Poured in the hands of a few If we don't agree with the views, what we gonna do? We're gonna rage against the machine and our freedom is through Who are you? The truth this time means more than ever before We find our peace when we wage our wars I hate the way the world is today The more things change, the more they stay the same I'm war/I'm peace I'm the freedom of speech Once home of the brave in the land of the free Be not about what could be but should be Always knew there would be this underlying enmity That runs so deep between my enemies and dreams I can guarantee it'll be you before it'll be me Never contest the nexus of Cathexis We don't follow trends motherfucker we set them Look into my eyes and tell me are you ready to die For what you know in your heart is unquestionably right? How many times? How many lives? How fights? How many lies will we reapply and deny? Will we survive or reach a compromise? Can we unite or forever divide in demise? Conflict will still arise, innocent will always die For we can't see the enemy is in our minds What's equally worse is half these cops aren't equitable When they should be equilateral damn, this shit is pitiful It isn't minimal, it's critical Follow along Should I stick with this tone of voice or holla on a song? I'm right between being a Republican or a Democrat Take F-U-C-K T-H-A-T and scribble it on my epitaph I'm sure you're wondering how this is all equating But I think that my dissertation is making it pretty blatant I'm sick of all the hating you fakes is fuckin' up I was a pompous fuck before I touched a Tonka truck The voice on the beat is like a hallmark It all starts as soon as I'm done rollin Through more grass than a golf cart Ya'll start shit, I finish it Take your rank and diminish it Music's my manifesto You gonna witness it I'm a giant Goliath You ain't gonna beat me But I beat the shit outta you If ya try to cheat me

Reality is what you choose to see A mystique motif intricately Designed to read between the lines Find the secret deep inside the lies No luxuries hide in hyperbole Nor predisposed ideology These pressures of society Doubt is the panacea to suffering Reality inside Inside the lies, we can't hide You are my answer to sleepless nights I found you inside my body We are now inside You can win this relentless friction with existence Envision and resist in consistent persistence Induced to slavery and inadequacy Expect to get dirty if you want to come clean This illusion that you’re free because you believe In these sentimental tales that others preach Through the years you obey in fear Because you don’t ever question what you read, see, or hear Praise and crusade into Hell Why face disgrace when you can push the blame on somebody else? Claim your vice and you’ll pay the price This is your chance to back your life Trust in yourself and no one else It’s how you play the cards that you’ve been dealt There’s no excuse whether you win or lose Because it’s not what you did but what you do And that’s the truth Reality is what you choose to see A mystique motif intricately Designed to read between the lines Find the secret deep inside the lies No luxuries hide in hyperbole Nor predisposed ideology These pressures of society Doubt is the panacea to suffering If I can be anything I would be me If we can be anything We could be love Reality is what you choose to see A mystique motif intricately Designed to read between the lines Find the secret deep inside the lies No luxuries hide in hyperbole Nor predisposed ideology These pressures of society Doubt is the panacea to suffering Reality lives inside Inside the lies, we can't hide Regardless of question The answer is you Trust your instincts I can find that I am free When I decide to be I am free The choice is up to me

I can hear your lies inside my head at night Turning and tossing in my bed all the time Cold sweat and regret sleep by my side These moans in my bones stay lovers for life Quid pro quo let the evidence show I'm as guilty as you and I don't have a clue May the court note that you're under oath Abuse the excuse defending me versus you You swore an oath of loyalty To uphold accordingly Your judgments hold me in contempt But only the guilty plea the fifth I'm an eyewitness and accomplice to you Testify an alibi and persecute the truth Justice and love are both blind in the trials of us But what do you do when the victim is you? Reasonable doubt resides in those that decide When both of us know it's you that's a lie Fleeing from the scene my evidence ties You to the proof of organized crimes I'm an eyewitness and accomplice to you Testify an alibi and persecute the truth Justice and love are both blind in the trials of us But what do you do when the victim is you? What do you do? The victim is you I'm an eyewitness and accomplice to you Testify an alibi and persecute the truth Justice and love are both blind in the trials of us But what do you do when the victim is you? I know it was you

I’ve seen the pieces of you Collect the empty in me We watched the core break away And now we're falling down Inside we rise to salience To think of you is to die And I don't want to die Plague the essence of my life I can't escape the condescension It rapes my conscious like witnessing a homicide As I feel before me You came adoringly And whispered into my ear Those two words, “Lucid Dream.” I was ignorant to all these things I used to believe Did I make this happen to me or did you? Or am I just happening to me? I'm salient to me I've seen the pieces of you Collect the empty in me We watched the core break away And now we're falling down Inside we rise to salience

1984 - George Orwell